Trust Your Life

Indecision can be paralyzing. Sometimes it feels like the “right” choice is just out of your reach. It’s tempting to believe that if you only knew the right thing to do, or the right person to talk to, or if you were only more (fill in the blank), things would fall into place and all of the problems in your life would magically disappear. In an instant you’d become whoever it is you think you’re “supposed” to be, and have all that you think you’re “supposed” to have. I used to exist in this space, and still do at times, believing there is one defined answer or path and that it’s my job to figure out how to get on it, which usually requires asking Google, and everyone else I know, what they think I should do. The problem with this kind of thinking is that you place all the power outside of yourself. You don’t trust that you can listen to your intuition, your gut and your heart to provide answers. You don’t believe in the validity of your own lived experience, and therefore, can’t make any decision confidently.

This way of existing in the world becomes especially complicated when it comes to chronic illness. There is so much information out there. There are so many diets, so many opinions, so many supplements and healing modalities. It’s hard to listen to the messages of your body when you are always seeking outside input. It becomes a muddled landscape. You feel desperate to feel better, you expect experts must “know better” and you get caught in a hamster wheel of looking to other people and modalities to help you heal.

Personally, I continue to navigate seeking help and learning to tune into my own inner wisdom. Thank God, for all of the resources that exist in the world, for all those who have done work to understand the intricacies of disease and our physical bodies. But, what I’ve come to understand, is that foundational to physical healing, is healing our relationship to our own selves. When we live in resistance to ourselves, or when we don’t trust that we can listen to our bodies and our hearts, to our desires and emotions, and act upon the information we receive, we will always be in a state of dis-ease.

To become Embodied, we have to be able to trust ourselves. To be our own friend and advocate, to extend compassion, grace and love to our own hearts. No one knows us better than we know ourselves. No one can tell us what we feel or need better than we can. We’ve got this.